I Don’t Miss You, Just Who You Used To Be
These lyrics will make sense in a second…but first…
“I don’t want to claim that I’m special, but I’m kind of special. Do you know what I mean?”
Last night, I attended the annual dinner with The Crew. It was a great night overall and I think I ate more than I should have. WAY too much food that tasted WAY too good. I’m pretty sure I overate and would have been a perfect exhibit of a "before" image for the next season of The Biggest Loser.
After dinner I took a quick walk into the Nightlife District to say "Hi" to The R&B Queen and The Journalist like I said I would. Devil always keeps his word. I ended up getting home at about 2300 because I felt so full. I actually seriously contemplated throwing up some of the food because I felt so fat (but I didn’t though).
Today was a public holiday so I took advantage of that opportunity and accepted an invitation from The Matrix to do something. I haven’t seen The Matrix for quite some time so I made the effort to see him and had to turn down a few other invitations and a meeting with The Grey Wolf (to discuss the photo colaboration).
Before I left The Asylum this morning, I also got a message from Eddie. She’s having a birthday party in a couple of weeks. Dinner then drinks afterwards and she had invited me to both. Of course I accepted. As if I wouldn’t. This is my Eddie we’re talking about here!!!
I would have missed my minion’s (parents) funeral to attend her birthday party. Ok, so maybe that was a bad example…but it’s not the point. The point is…I was going to be there. Eddie wanted to check to see that I would be attending the dinner and the after dinner drinks or just one of the functions.
As if she had to ask! I was almost offended to think that she contemplated the thought that I wouldn’t be there for her birthday. As if!!! And with Patsy there too…let’s just say that I’m seriously looking forward to it.
Meanwhile, it’s been a fair while since I’ve seen The Matrix. Although not as long as some of the other characters from Season 1, it seems something has changed since I last saw him. Something I can’t quite put my finger on and it’s most likely me. It usually is me. Hell, it’s ALWAYS me. I’m usually the cause of a lot of problems (but that’s to be expected when you’re someone like me).
I’ve gained more scars in the interim. It’s like every friendship (or perceived friendship) I have is a knife that has stabbed me. It’s fine provided that the knife remains in there and I’m happy to bleed for someone else that I’ve deemed to be worthy enough. It’s just that most of the time the knives get removed...and I'm left with a gaping wound that (with time) gives me another scar.
And people wonder why I keep trying to armour up.
The Matrix did offer to go and see Spiderman 3 with me when it’s released later in the year but I’ve as yet not committed to anything. I may possibly have a very important barbeque or something similar to attend at about that time.
While I was at The Matrix’s place I got a telephone call from The Baldie. He’s had to find a new place to stay and wanted to know if I could help him out (and if I knew anyone that could look after his cat).
Funny that. ActionGirl attempted to call me a couple of days ago and messaged me (probably also asking for help) and The Angel has also been in contact with me…getting a Devil perspective on a few things going on with her life too.
Is it just me…or is it weird how all of a sudden, people seem to remember me when they want something from me?
Maybe if they had been around when I was in a psychological tail spin they might now have found themselves with an ally with Devil wings.
Oh well...too bad. Maybe they can try and get in touch with Devil from Season 1 when The Devil Show is on as repeats in syndication.
Anyway, we watched a few movies while I was at The Matrix’s place. We watched The Producers [Springtime for Hitler is a classic!], Clerks [I didn’t think it was as funny as Clerks 2] and Dead or Alive [This is probably one of the best movies ever made! I don’t remember the storyline though (not that it was important)…but that it was a REALLY good movie. Seroiusly.]
By the time all the movies were over, a few of The Matrix’s other friends had arrived and I took my leave. The Matrix offered me an invitation to stay for dinner [Empire Pizza mind you] but with my Spider-sense warning me against it…I decided to take my leave and head over to the climbing gym for the rest of the night instead.
On the drive home I realised that I’m not the same person I used to be in Season 1 (probably out of necessity more than anything else) but I don’t know if I’m the person I want to be but for all it’s worth…I’m the only person I can be right now.
I think…
“When the jumo cataclysm happens, watch out, ‘cause it’s gonna be quite an afternoon.”
When I got to the climbing gym I was surprised to see it so empty. I was expecting a few more people being a public holiday and all but that didn’t matter much. Less people meant more room to move around (which is a good thing) and fewer small children to fall on (which isn’t necessarily a good thing). The Belayer was there though.
Now that I have a climbing membership…I can go to the climbing gym any time I want (while their open) and climb as much as I want to. I guess I’ll always have something to do now and it’s good to have The Belayer around too. He’s there at rock climbing and he’s there at martial arts.
It’s good to have someone around that not only understands various aspects of my world…but experiences them as I do too. Everyone else seems just to be “watching” The Devil Show…as opposed to being part of it…but I guess that’s the way things go.
In a way, I kind of miss the person I used to be…but then, I don’t regret being the person I am now.
It just sometimes scares me to think of the person that I may end up being.
“I don’t want to claim that I’m special, but I’m kind of special. Do you know what I mean?”
Last night, I attended the annual dinner with The Crew. It was a great night overall and I think I ate more than I should have. WAY too much food that tasted WAY too good. I’m pretty sure I overate and would have been a perfect exhibit of a "before" image for the next season of The Biggest Loser.
After dinner I took a quick walk into the Nightlife District to say "Hi" to The R&B Queen and The Journalist like I said I would. Devil always keeps his word. I ended up getting home at about 2300 because I felt so full. I actually seriously contemplated throwing up some of the food because I felt so fat (but I didn’t though).
Today was a public holiday so I took advantage of that opportunity and accepted an invitation from The Matrix to do something. I haven’t seen The Matrix for quite some time so I made the effort to see him and had to turn down a few other invitations and a meeting with The Grey Wolf (to discuss the photo colaboration).
Before I left The Asylum this morning, I also got a message from Eddie. She’s having a birthday party in a couple of weeks. Dinner then drinks afterwards and she had invited me to both. Of course I accepted. As if I wouldn’t. This is my Eddie we’re talking about here!!!
I would have missed my minion’s (parents) funeral to attend her birthday party. Ok, so maybe that was a bad example…but it’s not the point. The point is…I was going to be there. Eddie wanted to check to see that I would be attending the dinner and the after dinner drinks or just one of the functions.
As if she had to ask! I was almost offended to think that she contemplated the thought that I wouldn’t be there for her birthday. As if!!! And with Patsy there too…let’s just say that I’m seriously looking forward to it.
Meanwhile, it’s been a fair while since I’ve seen The Matrix. Although not as long as some of the other characters from Season 1, it seems something has changed since I last saw him. Something I can’t quite put my finger on and it’s most likely me. It usually is me. Hell, it’s ALWAYS me. I’m usually the cause of a lot of problems (but that’s to be expected when you’re someone like me).
I’ve gained more scars in the interim. It’s like every friendship (or perceived friendship) I have is a knife that has stabbed me. It’s fine provided that the knife remains in there and I’m happy to bleed for someone else that I’ve deemed to be worthy enough. It’s just that most of the time the knives get removed...and I'm left with a gaping wound that (with time) gives me another scar.
And people wonder why I keep trying to armour up.
The Matrix did offer to go and see Spiderman 3 with me when it’s released later in the year but I’ve as yet not committed to anything. I may possibly have a very important barbeque or something similar to attend at about that time.
While I was at The Matrix’s place I got a telephone call from The Baldie. He’s had to find a new place to stay and wanted to know if I could help him out (and if I knew anyone that could look after his cat).
Funny that. ActionGirl attempted to call me a couple of days ago and messaged me (probably also asking for help) and The Angel has also been in contact with me…getting a Devil perspective on a few things going on with her life too.
Is it just me…or is it weird how all of a sudden, people seem to remember me when they want something from me?
Maybe if they had been around when I was in a psychological tail spin they might now have found themselves with an ally with Devil wings.
Oh well...too bad. Maybe they can try and get in touch with Devil from Season 1 when The Devil Show is on as repeats in syndication.
Anyway, we watched a few movies while I was at The Matrix’s place. We watched The Producers [Springtime for Hitler is a classic!], Clerks [I didn’t think it was as funny as Clerks 2] and Dead or Alive [This is probably one of the best movies ever made! I don’t remember the storyline though (not that it was important)…but that it was a REALLY good movie. Seroiusly.]
By the time all the movies were over, a few of The Matrix’s other friends had arrived and I took my leave. The Matrix offered me an invitation to stay for dinner [Empire Pizza mind you] but with my Spider-sense warning me against it…I decided to take my leave and head over to the climbing gym for the rest of the night instead.
On the drive home I realised that I’m not the same person I used to be in Season 1 (probably out of necessity more than anything else) but I don’t know if I’m the person I want to be but for all it’s worth…I’m the only person I can be right now.
I think…
“When the jumo cataclysm happens, watch out, ‘cause it’s gonna be quite an afternoon.”
When I got to the climbing gym I was surprised to see it so empty. I was expecting a few more people being a public holiday and all but that didn’t matter much. Less people meant more room to move around (which is a good thing) and fewer small children to fall on (which isn’t necessarily a good thing). The Belayer was there though.
Now that I have a climbing membership…I can go to the climbing gym any time I want (while their open) and climb as much as I want to. I guess I’ll always have something to do now and it’s good to have The Belayer around too. He’s there at rock climbing and he’s there at martial arts.
It’s good to have someone around that not only understands various aspects of my world…but experiences them as I do too. Everyone else seems just to be “watching” The Devil Show…as opposed to being part of it…but I guess that’s the way things go.
In a way, I kind of miss the person I used to be…but then, I don’t regret being the person I am now.
It just sometimes scares me to think of the person that I may end up being.
Devil's Winamp: Robbie Williams - She’s Madonna (Pet Shop Boys Remix)
Devil's Mood : Slightly Sad / Accepting / Different
Character Profile
[The Belayer]
- Has an uncanny resemblance to “Screech” from Saved ByThe Bell.
- Is a self-confessed nerd and is very smart.
- Has also joined me at martial arts.
- Regularly climbs with me at the climbing gym.
- Is very easy going and can be very diplomatic (which I find...goes against my own personal nature).
[The name for this character does have a double meaning…if anyone out there can figure it out]
posted by Devil's Advocate at 5.3.07
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