Something Deep Inside. I Can Feel But I Can’t Touch. Can Never Get Too Much. I Hear You Loud And Clear. I’ve Got Nothing To Fear

As expected...since his last blog a fair bit has happened. At this point though, Devil doesn’t have the time to elaborate too much on the happenings of his life…so instead, here’s a point form update of everything.

• On Wednesday at gymnastics, I found the ankle hooks (which as the name would suggest are like shoes that you wear that have hooks on the ankles so you can hang upside down). I spent about a quarter of the session hanging upside down doing fully inverted sit-ups in an attempt to increase my abdominal strength. I’d like to think I pushed myself pretty hard because after I managed to get down…I couldn’t really stand fully upright because of my contracted stomach muscles. It was pretty awesome.
  

• It was my last day at Babylon on Friday but because of circumstances, we weren’t able to go out for a farewell lunch. I was sad to be leaving and I’m going to miss the people I’ve worked with in the last few months. I’m particularly going to miss The Dancing Receptionist. She was funny and bitchy and we got along really well. I’m especially going to miss going through the newspaper with her and looking through the school ball photos and being bitchy about what the kids were wearing and making fun of them.

• As of (this) Monday, I will (once again) be an employee of SETEC and will be off at a two week course which I’m really looking forward to. I can’t wait to start my job out at the satellite office so that I can get a bike and ride to work. I’ll be getting at about 30 minutes of cardio exercise every day (which is going to be good for my fat reduction and muscle tone) and I'll be saving some money (which is going to be good for my bank account).

• I’m (once again) working on another research paper which has a deadline of the end of this month. It’s research paper for the national conference to be exact. I have 3 weeks to write a 3000 word research paper…and at the moment I haven’t written a word.

• Talking things out with The Matrix has made me realise that despite my instincts to put up my defences when the possibility of a threat appeared…after some investigations, it now appears to be unfounded.

• On Saturday night I went out to the birthday party for The Dancing Receptionist. The Live Wire was also there too. Unfortunately for them though…I spent my time talking to a girl that I had worked with briefly at Babylon and The Live Wire’s (constant) glances of jealousy did not go unnoticed…despite the fact that I continued to ignore them. The Livewire just DOES NOT understand me. Touching me and poking me when I'm pissed off and asking me if I’m ok…then telling me to cheer up is just going to piss me off even more. At the end of the night though…I think the message that I was not looking for a relationship (of any type!) was finally received. On the drive home from the party...I was thinking about Grace. She understood me.
  

• Overall, I’ve got my fire back for everything again. I’m feeling more focused and driven than I was before…and I think The Belayer has been responsible for that. He’s somehow found his fire and has been pushing himself that little bit further in order to try and get better. As a result…I’ve had to push myself to try and get better. Admittedly…he IS the better climber than me…it’s just a matter of how much better he is than me that will vary. And I simply can’t have him too much better than me so as a result…the ante has been upped in all other activities as well.

Devil's Winamp: Billie Piper - Something Deep Inside
Devil's Mood : Rejuvenated / Focused / Determined

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Character Profile

[The Dancing Recptionist]

• Previously worked with Devil at Babylon.
  
• Works as a receptionist by day and a night-club podium dancer by night.
  
• Is friends with The Livewire.
  Is very bitchy (as most receptionists are).
• Is actually a really impressive dancer (surprisingly…because she doesn’t look like a dancer)