Maybe If We Are Surrounded In Beauty. Someday, We Will Become What We See
Devil spent some time today going through the units that are available in the course that He's going to be starting this semester at university.
Several of the units have got my attention in the sense that what I'll be able to do upon completion...is generate photos that are at a standard suitable for advertising and marketing campaigns. Basically, I'm going to be one of the people that creates images that people think are beautiful...containing photos of people...who are beautiful.
It only clicked with me today that I'm probably doing this course for the same reason that I did my personal trainers course. I could never look attractive like the guys you see in a gym so I did what I do best and became the person who helps them look even more attractive. With this photography degree, I won't ever be a model but I'll become the person who makes them look even more attractive.
I don't know if doing this course is going to make things better or worse for me. I mean, doing the personal trainers course didn't make me look or feel any better for it. In fact, it did the opposite. The entire time I was doing the course I felt out of place because I didn't look like a personal trainer. All the girls were slim and toned. All the guys were strong and muscular. Then there was me. The one person in the class that didn't fit in and every class was like a reminder of how ugly I was by comparison.
I could never become a good looking fitness model looking person so I tried to get as close to what I want to be as I possibly could. I tried to get as close as I possibly could to the amazing looking fitness model types by becoming a personal trainer. Unfortunately for me, I don't look like a personal trainer and never will, so that career path turned into a dead end.
This photography degree is probably going to be the same as well. I could never become a photography model so instead I'll try to get as close to that which I want to be. Unfortunately for me, I don't look like a photographer and never will, so this career path is probably going to turn into a dead end too. I can't even stomach the thought of having my picture taken without wanting to throw up.
It saddens me a little bit when I think about it. I'm the guy that never gets to be in the spotlight. Instead, I'm the one that has to shine the light on others. I only wish that I could have my time to shine in the spotlight. To have people admire me. To have people think I was attractive. I guess it's true what they say though. Inner beauty is your soul shining through...and we all know Devil's don't have a soul.
Still...I can't help but wish that I had great looking body and was attractive and popular.
Now I don't know if I'm doing this course for the right reasons.
I guess only time will tell and someday I'll know. Maybe even someday I'll get to have my turn in the spotlight.
Someday.
Maybe.
Several of the units have got my attention in the sense that what I'll be able to do upon completion...is generate photos that are at a standard suitable for advertising and marketing campaigns. Basically, I'm going to be one of the people that creates images that people think are beautiful...containing photos of people...who are beautiful.
It only clicked with me today that I'm probably doing this course for the same reason that I did my personal trainers course. I could never look attractive like the guys you see in a gym so I did what I do best and became the person who helps them look even more attractive. With this photography degree, I won't ever be a model but I'll become the person who makes them look even more attractive.
I don't know if doing this course is going to make things better or worse for me. I mean, doing the personal trainers course didn't make me look or feel any better for it. In fact, it did the opposite. The entire time I was doing the course I felt out of place because I didn't look like a personal trainer. All the girls were slim and toned. All the guys were strong and muscular. Then there was me. The one person in the class that didn't fit in and every class was like a reminder of how ugly I was by comparison.
I could never become a good looking fitness model looking person so I tried to get as close to what I want to be as I possibly could. I tried to get as close as I possibly could to the amazing looking fitness model types by becoming a personal trainer. Unfortunately for me, I don't look like a personal trainer and never will, so that career path turned into a dead end.
This photography degree is probably going to be the same as well. I could never become a photography model so instead I'll try to get as close to that which I want to be. Unfortunately for me, I don't look like a photographer and never will, so this career path is probably going to turn into a dead end too. I can't even stomach the thought of having my picture taken without wanting to throw up.
It saddens me a little bit when I think about it. I'm the guy that never gets to be in the spotlight. Instead, I'm the one that has to shine the light on others. I only wish that I could have my time to shine in the spotlight. To have people admire me. To have people think I was attractive. I guess it's true what they say though. Inner beauty is your soul shining through...and we all know Devil's don't have a soul.
Still...I can't help but wish that I had great looking body and was attractive and popular.
Now I don't know if I'm doing this course for the right reasons.
I guess only time will tell and someday I'll know. Maybe even someday I'll get to have my turn in the spotlight.
Someday.
Maybe.
Devil's Winamp: Jewel - Sensitive
Devil's Mood: Hesitant / Unsure / Nervous / Apprehensive
posted by Devil's Advocate at 27.1.10
.jpg)
<< Home