Nothing Matters, But Knowing Nothing Matters. It's Just Life, So Keep Dancing Through

Devil has had a bit of a revelation in recent days...and like most of his revelations, they've occurred in the most unusual of places.

I guess in my most recent blog I've taken great deal of things for granted and I've not really had a bigger picture perspective. I'm still saddened by the way I look and I'm eventually, maybe, hopefully I might almost look attractive...but I shouldn't be dwelling on it. Not when I have so much else in my life going on.

I was riding my bike home from work and listening to this song and the words made a weird sort of sense to me. Then I realised...I can actually ride a bike. There are people who can't either becuase they don't have a bike or because they physically can't...and I should be thankful that I can.

Then I realised:

• I'm not good at rock climbing...but I still do it.
• I'm not good at gymnastics...but I still do it.
• I'm not good at swimming...but I still do it.
• I'm not good at swing dancing...but I still do it.
• I'm not good at pilates...but I still do it.
• I'm not good at bike riding...but I still do it.
• I'm not good at martial arts...but I still do it.
• I'm not good at aerial silks...but I still do it.
• I'm not good at weights and running...but I still do it.

I'm not good at a lot of things...but I still do it because I can. Not everyone can do the things I do and I should be grateful that I have the ability to even give them all a go.

• I'm not smart...but I'll still try to learn.
• I'm not popular...but I'll still try to be social.
• I'm not attractive...but I'll still try to take care of my appearance.

I guess I owe it to the people who can't do the things that I do either because of lack of ability or lack of motivation or just plain lack of life...I owe it to them to do what I do because I can.

I don't know how much longer my body is going to hold out. I don't know how much longer my current lifestyle and financial circumstances are going to hold out. I don't know how much longer I can live the life I'm living and I don't know how much longer it will be before it's all taken away from me (or if it will be taken away at all)...but I owe it to myself to do everything I can with what I have, in what little time I have in this life.

Devil's Winamp: Wicked - Dancing Through Life
Devil's Mood: Centred / Focused